facing the music!
Yesterday, I left a comment on this really really cool blog. That lady is on fire I tell ya! She had another great weigh in and after I congratulated her for it, I promptly proceeded to beat myself up over my own progress - or lack thereof. Don't get me wrong: it's not that I'm not happy for others who are successful, because I really am. I know for a fact that everyone who manages to pull off a great loss is putting some serious effort in it. It's only fair that it pays off on the scales, right? And honestly, I couldn't be happier for them! It's just at the same time it kind of makes me want to hide under a rock... I feel a tad ashamed that I wasted another week. So my first reaction was to skip my weigh in today. I already knew it was going to be bad, so why punish myself and look at the actual numbers? But then I realised that this is exactly what I've been doing for all these years I've been trying to lose weight - and it got me nowhere. On the contrary, it makes it even worse! Whenever I gained, I would start avoiding the scale, bury my head in the sand and squeeze my eyes shut tightly... pretending everything was alright when everything wasn't. So I decided to stop that vicious cycle right there. Today is my official weigh in Wednesday and I stepped on the scale this morning and faced the music.
This week's result: + 1.3 kg / 2.8 lbs
It wasn't nice to see these numbers, but I acknowledged them and now I'm ready to move on and start into a new week. It's going to be a good one, I'm sure. Because by stepping on the scale today I already took the first hurdle.
4 comments:
Hey alea,
The hardest part is picking yourself up after a tough few days...however good for you that you did! I know that for me...if I don't face it...it just gets worse. Don't beat yourself up to much in the scheme of things its only a couple of pouns.
Why do you think you've had a tough time in the past little while? Maybe you can look at what is causing you stress an just squishing it!!! lol
Good luck this week! Good for you for stopping it. I failed to 'check it' last year and gained 20 pounds!
Good for you! I'm glad you stopped the pattern and decided to weigh in anyway.
I don't want to be in denial anymore. I want to KNOW. Being unaware is what got me in trouble in the first place.
I'd say you realizing this, is a NSV (non scale victory). Woo HOO!
im beating myself up too. i had hopes to start a diet on monday...and now its wednesday and ive done nothing but fail :(
Hi Alea! I'm proud of you for acknowledging the cycle - sometimes I just want to shut my eyes and ears and sing lalalalala really loud instead of facing the music. But you did it, so good on ya! You can do this, I know you can!
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