weighty matters
So when I was talking about a new life and dreams and changes in my last post, of course I wasn't only talking about life in general but about my weight too. Especially when I wrote "I feel myself beginning to lose myself in my old ways and I don't want this to happen."
You see, that's still the kind of person I am - worrying about the scales and my weight and how my clothes fit and whether I'm the fattest person in a room and all that... I wish it was different. And you know, at some point during my absence I really thought that it was! But apparently I haven't changed as much as I thought I did and am still riddled with the same issues and insecurities... Gosh darnit!
So guess what? I'm back at square one.
3 comments:
I don't think you're back at square one. I think you're just having a normal adjustment period to coming back to "normal life" after a period of travelling and living life on your own terms. It is SO hard to adjust again, it really is!! And just because you're back in your "old" life it doesn't meant that the "old" you is back either. I too thought that, and panicked! I didn't want Old Phil back!! But of course, the more I panicked about it, the more she surfaced.
Just take it one day at a time :)
I also recommend reading Eat Pray Love if you haven't already.
xx
Hi Alea,
Thanks for stopping by my blog. I've read through your last couple of posts and I'm interested in following your journey. I see a lot of myself in you and I can't wait to see where life takes you.
Happy blogging. I will check back often.
Natasha
Hi Alea! Thanks for commenting on my blog. The day I came back to work after my honeymoon being over was the worst day of my life and that was only after 2 weeks! I can't imagine how hard it would be to go back to normal life after a year. Don't beat yourself up about it. Just start with one thing at a time and you'll be back to the rat race in no time :)
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